Residency and Birthday!

Residency has officially begun! Stephen left this morning at 5:30 am! Wow, guess I can't complain anymore about getting up with David. He is super excited, and it really hit me last night when I was ironing his new white coat!! This is it! Med school is over, my husband is really a practicing doctor! Wow, I'm so humbled by this huge step he is taking. There is no way he and I could have made it this far without the Lord guiding our every step. Stephen now more than ever will be relying on God as the next 4 years are going to be trying. Long hours, low pay, and a huge responsibility! I know God will get him and our family through this, He has this far, why stop now right? I just can't believed how blessed we are sometimes!

Another huge deal happening tomorrow is that our precious baby boy is turning 1 year old! I truly can't believe it. Everyone told me it would go fast, but it really has!! I've actually had a hard time with his turning 1. I know logically that it doesn't mean he is all grown up, or that he doesn't need me, or that tomorrow he isn't suddenly going to change into a different person just because he turns one, but it feels like it! I'll soon have a toddler running around my house! His birthday marks something significant in my brain telling me he's less of a baby and more of a little person. Yesterday I found myself asking if I had truly cherished his "babyhood" and what things I could've done differently (being less stressed over the little things, not complaining about getting up in the middle of the night etc.). I can't play that game with myself because no matter what there is no looking back, just forward.

I've also been thinking about one year ago today. One year ago today, I was still on bed rest with Pre-ecclampsia. I was feeling pretty horrible, and my doctor was having me do another 24 hour urine collection (pretty gross actually collecting your pee all day!). I knew I had an appointment with an ultrasound and I knew I would get the results back from that test, but I didn't know the next day I would be a Mommy! One year ago today I hadn't met the little boy who would change my life forever. I tried to picture what he would look like, but even my wildest imagination couldn't have predicted how beautiful he'd be. One year ago today I had no idea how the next day would be the biggest roller coaster of emotions I'd ever face!! One year ago tomorrow, was the scariest, most amazing, most difficult, most wonderful day!

Tomorrow, on Davids first birthday, I hope I can make it through without crying the whole day! Like I said before, I can't rewind my life, his "babyhood" and do over. This past year has been the most amazing year in my life. I wouldn't change one single thing. I love being David's mommy, I can't believe God blessed me with such an angel!

Happy Birthday Eve David!!